i am the president and dont you forget it!!!... dont ask

a lot has been going on!! i went to my first concert last monthl... WARPED TOUR ROCKED!!!! it was so amazing... i actually wa so happy and overjoyed that i almost started crying during one of atreyu's (sp.) songs... it was a crazy moment...happy sad, depressed, pissed, estatic, all kinds of emotions and everything at that one moment and i just lost it... at a rock concert... it is amazing how music can do that to you... it was amazing... anyways i have my second concert on tuesday... papa roach and 311... cant flipping wait!!!... um well this is going to blow all of you away... my mother came out about a month ago... as in came out to me and my brother that she is gay... came as quite a shock to both of us and i dont think that it wouldnt have happened if she wouldnt have met her girlfriend jen... it freaked me out at first... i mean i have quite a few gay friends but when your mother who has said all her life that being gay is disgusting and that it was gross... so anyways i am slowly dealing with it and i really dont think that it has sunk in quite yet... i havent seen then together and i have only met her once... as in jen her girlfriend... anyways... i dont know life is crazy... well i was going to start school at the end of the month but as it seems it is just not going to happen and i am pissed/depressed about it... i want school more than anything and i have to wait until january... it sucks and i just cant get my shit together in time for school to start... i know i know... i have already yelled at myself a thousand times... but as january approaches i plan on paying my bills off as much as possible and moving out with a friend of mine... i know... a lot to do in such a short period of time... but enough about that... i got a tatoo on wednesday... it is in memory of chris... my friend that died in training because of this rediculous war... it is on the top of my foot... and i love it... so it says...

this isnt what i'd
planned, i wanted
to be so much more
but this is war
CDG 7.2.02

those are lyrics from smile empty souls song "this is war"... i found chris' obituary and it said that he always wanted to be so much more and i know that he didnt plan on this war... so it fit so well and i have been wanting to get a tatoo in memory of chris anyways... but as i got it all of the memories of him flooded my brain in between the horrible yet exciting pain... and by the way... tatoos are an aphrodesiac... my spelling is horrible... interesting day to say the least but i am still being good and am so freaking fristrated and horny all the damned time it is rediculous... anyways...so it is no sore... and after a longs day work my foot throbs... fun i know but i think that it is awesome... well i mean not awesome but well you know... anyways... that is all i want to say for right now... so later